The Sea In Between
Sep. 25th, 2011 11:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shiroi_tenurp rl rant (getting this out of the way):Got a lot of studying and applications to finish...testing this weekend and a debate tournament. as their varsity debate chair if I go 1-3 AS I HAVE DONE I think I might just have to cower. Statistics is kicking my butt and my brain is overcooked spaghetti and pretzels dancing in starchy water of doom...I think I need to stress bake...
GTFO SICKNESSES I have two grandmas and no living grandfathers on either side of me, and as asian families go they are pretty important. And both of my grannies are sick, my mom's has cancer and my dad's is severely diabetic and has an eating disorder/misc stuff. Thankfully my dad's granny is 20min away from us and has 2 pretty good sons and 2 daughters to watch over her-she's like a baby, though. My mom's mom, though, is 6 hours away by car and has just recently been hospitalized (only which I found out because I pissed my mom off and I have a feeling she would have never told my brother or me. ugh). Its thyroid cancer in mestasis, and getting details is like pulling teeth out of a 6 year old with no qualms about biting. So my mother is this Chinese herbal guru but isn't licensed and thinks that it will solve the world(we let it go because she needs to feel helpful) and so my granny is getting a mix of Eastern medicine and Western, though the Chinese medicine is just an energy booster type as far as I know. But she was as ornery as ever last time we visited...but not so much now. So my unemployed brother is thinking about going down to visit with my mom because egaddddd, my mom is like a time bomb when you put her with family (even us) so putting her with her mom is like a minefield. No joke, when my mom tells her sister to give the phone to her mom her voice gets angry and accusatory and restless. It drops a few octaves and gets gravelly. There's been lots of ~family drama and there's a long story, but even though there are relatives about there they are kind of useless. And my mom is really sensitive and cares too much and wants to go down to visit but doesn't know who will take me back from school because my dad gets out at 5 and...the library is only open 1/2 the days of the week. So it turns out that I am stopping her from having my bro go down there with her (because he's the son and grannies like sons and he should be a mediator in that tiny apartment). I want to just drive with my permit and no supervisor, because I live far away from school and asking people is like pulling teeth for me. I might have to explain this story and it would sound like a pity party. I really don't want to complain about this to my friends because its a downer and they have crap in their lives to worry about. I would tell one of them, but I think I might cry at school. I can't think about my grandmothers too much or I will need to take a long break from studies and I just want to live under a rock with a food and wifi then. So this post is kind of me getting it out and telling myself to get my shit together.
2) Doodles in my moleskine!
I got a moleskine and am thinking about getting a le petit prince themed one because I adore the story...and here are some doodles.
I can't stop loving mermaids. &hearts
Loki with red hair and lips sewn shut. He reminded me of Hisoka from HunterxHunter...xD
trying out watercolors. I'll have to send in an art supplement soon and I need to expand my media.
heheh Scott Pilgrim on the left and Hunger Games on the right.
I am also thinking of applying for some scholarships because of impending money troubles and would like feedback! its a fantasy/sci-fi themed one and I submit 3 B&W drawings and if they choose one I get a few hundred dollars(which about covers my application fees *sigh) I am thinking of something epic, touching, and/or poignant; since all 3 have to be different. ideas to come!
3) more AUs!
I watched Lion King 3D and the first half is PRETTY MUCH THOR. Odin/mufasa, Scar/Loki, and Simba/Thor. Thor does have a mane of hair, and SO DOES LOKI. There's dangling off a cliff and creys and snarky eyebrows.
SEE? XDDD
Also an A/E au where Arthur is Eame's butler but has this crazy past where he was going to be the next master as the illegit son but then E was born and he has to serve him. E has this mummy complex because he didn't grow up w/the main branch of the family and has this crazy relationship with A because he would do anything to have him forever, like dub-con sexing and ummm this is pretty much the story of Yuutsu no Asa but with A/E.
GTFO SICKNESSES I have two grandmas and no living grandfathers on either side of me, and as asian families go they are pretty important. And both of my grannies are sick, my mom's has cancer and my dad's is severely diabetic and has an eating disorder/misc stuff. Thankfully my dad's granny is 20min away from us and has 2 pretty good sons and 2 daughters to watch over her-she's like a baby, though. My mom's mom, though, is 6 hours away by car and has just recently been hospitalized (only which I found out because I pissed my mom off and I have a feeling she would have never told my brother or me. ugh). Its thyroid cancer in mestasis, and getting details is like pulling teeth out of a 6 year old with no qualms about biting. So my mother is this Chinese herbal guru but isn't licensed and thinks that it will solve the world(we let it go because she needs to feel helpful) and so my granny is getting a mix of Eastern medicine and Western, though the Chinese medicine is just an energy booster type as far as I know. But she was as ornery as ever last time we visited...but not so much now. So my unemployed brother is thinking about going down to visit with my mom because egaddddd, my mom is like a time bomb when you put her with family (even us) so putting her with her mom is like a minefield. No joke, when my mom tells her sister to give the phone to her mom her voice gets angry and accusatory and restless. It drops a few octaves and gets gravelly. There's been lots of ~family drama and there's a long story, but even though there are relatives about there they are kind of useless. And my mom is really sensitive and cares too much and wants to go down to visit but doesn't know who will take me back from school because my dad gets out at 5 and...the library is only open 1/2 the days of the week. So it turns out that I am stopping her from having my bro go down there with her (because he's the son and grannies like sons and he should be a mediator in that tiny apartment). I want to just drive with my permit and no supervisor, because I live far away from school and asking people is like pulling teeth for me. I might have to explain this story and it would sound like a pity party. I really don't want to complain about this to my friends because its a downer and they have crap in their lives to worry about. I would tell one of them, but I think I might cry at school. I can't think about my grandmothers too much or I will need to take a long break from studies and I just want to live under a rock with a food and wifi then. So this post is kind of me getting it out and telling myself to get my shit together.
2) Doodles in my moleskine!
I got a moleskine and am thinking about getting a le petit prince themed one because I adore the story...and here are some doodles.
I can't stop loving mermaids. &hearts
Loki with red hair and lips sewn shut. He reminded me of Hisoka from HunterxHunter...xD
trying out watercolors. I'll have to send in an art supplement soon and I need to expand my media.
heheh Scott Pilgrim on the left and Hunger Games on the right.
I am also thinking of applying for some scholarships because of impending money troubles and would like feedback! its a fantasy/sci-fi themed one and I submit 3 B&W drawings and if they choose one I get a few hundred dollars(which about covers my application fees *sigh) I am thinking of something epic, touching, and/or poignant; since all 3 have to be different. ideas to come!3) more AUs!
I watched Lion King 3D and the first half is PRETTY MUCH THOR. Odin/mufasa, Scar/Loki, and Simba/Thor. Thor does have a mane of hair, and SO DOES LOKI. There's dangling off a cliff and creys and snarky eyebrows.
SEE? XDDDAlso an A/E au where Arthur is Eame's butler but has this crazy past where he was going to be the next master as the illegit son but then E was born and he has to serve him. E has this mummy complex because he didn't grow up w/the main branch of the family and has this crazy relationship with A because he would do anything to have him forever, like dub-con sexing and ummm this is pretty much the story of Yuutsu no Asa but with A/E.
